Restless

The last few weeks have been an emotional roller-coaster – planning a move overseas is bound to be rich in emotions – but I realise I’ve mostly felt restless.

I like to be “in action”. I always have projects to work on and ideas bubbling in my mind, but since I received my visa for England, I have entered a period of waiting. Of course I still have projects to pursue with Chicks & Pics and my Etsy shop, and university is also keeping me busy… Yet, I still feel antsy.

There are exactly 75 days left to go. My departure date is set, my one-way ticket is almost bought and if it was only for me, I would already be packed up and waiting at the gate!

I feel like everyone around me is moving forward and I’m standing there, waiting for my turn. I have many reasons to be impatient to cross the pond; it’s a new chapter with my sweetheart, but I also see this as a new start for myself.

This last year has been under the sign of change. Not only because lots of things in my life have changed, but because I too changed through them. For so many years I have been too scared to quit the comfort of my cracked shell, I am now ready to fly and make the most of this beautiful life – and I am impatient to share all its delightful adventures with the man I know to be the one.

That “in between” period is difficult because there is so much to look forward, small things like big ones. I’m impatient for Edward and I to start looking for a new house and make it our home; to buy cosy bedsheets for long Sunday mornings in bed; to start volunteering at one of the many animal shelters of Lincoln; to go on bike rides in the countryside on sunny days, and long drives to the seaside on stormy ones; to meet my sister-in-law for the first time; to find a new job; to run my first race; to go on café dates…

The idea of starting a totally new life in another country can be terribly scary but also amazingly exciting. Despite my restlessness, and how hard it has been for me lately to “only be waiting”, I firmly believe I have made the best decision of my life…